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Sometimes, the truth just hurts.

Monday, July 17, 2006

confused


Been tryin to enter an entry for god noes how long ago.. but blogger always screwed things up.. so I’ve been deletin lyk 3 entries.. damn.. my 1st day of menses it’s lyk livin hell lo.. damn e cramps man.. lucky wei yang was so kind to get me some warm water to ease e pain.. he did a lot for me today.. haha he even sent me home when he’s tired =.=” thankx bro.. haha we even agreed on an outin one of this days.. haha vann came to visit today.. she coloured her hair! Quite nice wor.. she look more mature now.. I think tat’s wad she wans? Haha went to e perfume section wit wei yang jux now.. I told e auntie to reserve for me paris Hilton de 2 free gifts.. cos I’m intendin to buy e perfume.. one watch and one bag.. e guess perfume oso not bad.. e packaging veri nice.. been thinking quiet a lot today.. I dono wad to say how to feel or how to react.. I’m lyk an livin zombie lo.. lol nah too hard to explain.. don wanna make it too clear.. not good either.. but salty kor noe wad’s goin on.. reali tired.. but I couldn’t make myself let go.. i’m suffocatin.. well wad can I say.. I am a bitch.. I brought tis to myself.. wad am I complainin for.. frens told me to let go.. but I jux shrug it off.. no matter wad I still love him and I do.. no matter wad ppl say.. no matter how bad things is.. wad ** say to me or wad ** did.. I still love him.. and I’m not gonna let him go.. at least not now.. for wad I noe


Am I e one u wanna hold

Is it endin or is it still goin..
It’s been torturing but I’m still hangin on
I wanted to let u go but my hand wouldn’t do so
All I wan is to noe if I’m e one u wanna hold
Whenever we kept slient I felt e pain for a moment
There’s been loads of time when I felt to u I wasn’t alive
I didn’t dare let u noe cos I’m afraid i’ll be left in e cold… alone

So.. how am I suppose to let u noe..
When u didn’t wanna hear it all at e first place
I didn’t noe where to go
All I could do was keep it in with me and I’m suffocatin
Oh no… I reali nid to noe..
Am I e one.. dat u wanna hold..

All this time.. I felt I knew u better den anyone else
But I was wrong.. u weren’t wad u seem to be
U weren’t wad I knew u weren’t wad I see
Den I realize I didn’t noe u at all
Tat moment I felt lyk a total stranger
Tryin to barge into a world tat I don belong
Tryin to fit into e arms dat nv welcome me all along
Tryin to hold on to e hand tat I no longer felt e warmth

So.. how am I suppose to let u noe..
When u didn’t wanna hear it all at e first place
I didn’t noe where to go
All I could do was keep it in with me and I’m suffocatin
Oh no… I reali nid to noe..
Am I e one.. dat u wanna hold..

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LOVE JAS. 02:30