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Sometimes, the truth just hurts.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

damn..


i've wanted to "redo" my blog. but didnt really have the time or mood. it's gonna be saturday soon, but i'm not really lookin forward to it. i'm feelin damn fcked up. i should have planned before hand and i really mean BEFORE BEFORE hand. i wanted to depend solely on myself (financially) but die to the lack of planning i didnt have enough.. have to turn to my dad. i feel really bad.. i'm gonna turn 21 nxt tues and i'm still doin this.. i feel like a burden to my mom and dad, which i have been for the nxt 20 years. some part of me feel like cancellin the party so tat i didnt have to ask my parents at all. but the selfish part of me held back, bcos i didnt want to regret not havin a celebration for my 21st birthday. this feelin sucks. i'm startin to hate myself now. i noe this is the wrong time to feel this way. but i cant help it. damn i'm useless.

This feeling sucks.. I should have known better..

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LOVE JAS. 00:29


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

...


we've come to a stage where talkin wont solve anything.. where nothin could be solved. all i can do is keep it inside. swallow my tears. silence is the only way to handle things from now onwards..

i've lost myself..

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LOVE JAS. 12:42


Monday, December 28, 2009

like FINALLY!


lol.. sometimes i really don't understand how some ppl can go on blogging every day~ so tiring~ lol sometimes i'd rather be doing something else.

everything's been simple but pretty good this holiday.. and finally at this point of time i don feel any stress at all.. like FINALLY i'm stress free.. sometimes i really wish i was a bimbo.. brainless enough to not have any stress.. *sigh* ~.~

*YAWNN* so tired... i'm so bored right now i'm watchin POWER PUFF GIRLS on cartoon network.. LOL so bored.. oh well~ perhaps i should get some shut eye.. this few days been sleepin quite late.. better adjust my body clock.. nxt sem i'll be having mornin lessons everyday~ mon to sat.. oh my tian~ T.T

I WANNA WATCH ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2! they are so dang bloody chippiliciously cute la!

ok.. good nite~

LOVE HIM. MISS HIM. MISS THEM (:

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LOVE JAS. 02:28


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

tired


i'm so tired.. so drained ou.. mentally and physically.. and i'm stressed out both ways.. if only there were real fireflies to light my path and show my the right way..

I miss u.. drained..



LOVE JAS. 01:38


Friday, October 23, 2009

i might not be able to take it any longer..


recently everything's been goin down the drain.. everythings been piling up.. it's really nerve wrecking.. so many times i feel lyk running into a secluded corner to cry my heart out.. u're the only one that understands me but u can't be by my side bcos of e stupid NS.. i really wish u were here. swallowing the tears aint easy.. neither is being alone.. but lyk wad sha told me..wad doesnt kill u will only make u stronger.. perhaps my life havent been smooth but it will get better.. juz 2 years more and my life would change.. many times i feel tat i cant take it any longer.. but the thought of u kept me goin on. there's no me without u.. thanks cum gong..
i love u..



LOVE JAS. 00:15