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Sometimes, the truth just hurts.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

damn..


i've wanted to "redo" my blog. but didnt really have the time or mood. it's gonna be saturday soon, but i'm not really lookin forward to it. i'm feelin damn fcked up. i should have planned before hand and i really mean BEFORE BEFORE hand. i wanted to depend solely on myself (financially) but die to the lack of planning i didnt have enough.. have to turn to my dad. i feel really bad.. i'm gonna turn 21 nxt tues and i'm still doin this.. i feel like a burden to my mom and dad, which i have been for the nxt 20 years. some part of me feel like cancellin the party so tat i didnt have to ask my parents at all. but the selfish part of me held back, bcos i didnt want to regret not havin a celebration for my 21st birthday. this feelin sucks. i'm startin to hate myself now. i noe this is the wrong time to feel this way. but i cant help it. damn i'm useless.

This feeling sucks.. I should have known better..

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